I talked to a friend before, between career and love, what will I pick? Coming on with the current situation I am in, I choose Career. Ya, its kinda of sad, but its the truth fact of what I will pick right. And further more is that, this career is not easy, its not just everyday go work, go home and end story. There are many plans to look out for, schedules to meet, etc. And many times, Sunday can be burnt. 

My energy for a day is burnt out easily if work starts to pile up but Yes, its cool and sweet to receive msgs from your loved one saying how are you, etc. And its nice I mean. 

What I mean here is the commitment, can I really commit to one? I worried I can't. I can't be destroying someone's life because of my obsession with my career. And I also don't want to be that way, I feel bad, sorry and wanted to speak up. But can't, I afraid.

I wanted to be committed to one when I am more stable, in terms of career line, in terms of financial standing. Cause I am now in a rocky situation, anything can affect me. (Rocky as in building up the steps) 

Why the sudden thoughts? I saw my friends, started this line ending his/her relationship because of commitment issue, I agree with that, because its just too hard to fit into 2 squares when your level is only that high. I got friends that has GF or Wife, and they striving to make the balance. I will say they are fairly successful, but its pressurizing to see them in such a stress mode at times.

So my end question, what should I do? I also don't know. Anyone that wish to talk to me about this, feel free to sms me, or msn me. But don't call me please. Even You. Phone talk is so ironic.

Alright.. Take care people..