"When you are in the good times, you never know that those are the good times, because you are not in the bad times. The moment you fallen into the bad times, then you realized that those are the good times.

People once told me that when a glass or a mirror is shattered, it can never be restored. I said buy a new one. But no matter how real or similar the new one is, it will never be the old one. You can piece back the shattered pieces, but there is no way you can remove the lines, even if I wanted to. But if I can make a new piece from the old ones, I will do it, no matter how much it cost. It might give me a cut or 2, but it won't break the pain when I broke it.

Why break the old one, they asked. Cause I want to get a new one, I said. I was wrong, I thought that a new one will be better than the old one, but it is not true all the time. Especially this time. The old one embarks a journey with me, withstand so many storms with me, and I just let go of it because of I fancy another one. So wrong I said, the old one can never forgive me for that, but I will be glad that the broken pieces can be piece back 1 by 1 and when I looked at it again, I can still see me inside it.

Its only words, they said. Correct, I said. Words are so empty, but feelings are real. Like I said, the good times will only feel good, when you are in the bad times. Think about it. Maybe it does hit you some way, some how."

Random thoughts..

Anyway, I did get somethings new. Like a new slipper, some new pants. Ya.. As for top, I got several at home, but always din manage to get them here. Ya.. Storage space.

Hmm, Saturday and I at home, rotting, actually waiting to go to Arena for the last show before CNY.

J C and Ning is flying over to UK soon, and of course, I am sending them off. :) I hope I got the chance to go there, but well.. Its not that easy.. Considering the work needed to be done before going there.

Also, We will have our usual breaks of CNY but will be backed to work on the Wed. Which is good for me, I can't think of anything to do if I ever got a 1 week off for CNY.. Zzzz..

Oh ya, I thinking of taking CAR lessons, but apparently, its damn freaking exp.. 100 over for the theories and then 60 over for each lesson, then 100 over again for the final. Like WTF!! Need to be so expensive anot. Cause if its me, I will chiong 2-3 lessons per week, and try to get it over and done with within 3 months. Its possible for me, considering the schedule I have.

Still considering.. Zzzz.. Budget la.. Problem le.. ROAR!!!

Other than that.. Hmm.. I think I spent the most for the month, birthdays la, food, outings and Cabs!! LOL!!! Better dun ask me how much i spent man.. You will faint.. 

OK!! Good luck to everyone in CNY.. I love all of you.. :)

So, this few days have been running around. Later we going to MediaCorp for site check, then our usual show of the day. 

Oh, before I go off, Here I wish Emily a Happy Happy 21st, its the start of a long road of responsibility and hmm.. Don't know.. LOL!! Wish her always pretty and ah.. Hmm, well, all good things you can think of.. LOL!!

Anyway, same goes to this week. Tomorrow, got a show after the usual show, so I think going home late. (Don't know still got time to meet up with the rest) Then Sunday got 2 events going on, First is Elaine's Baby's first month, okie, the name is realllyyy Chim.. So Don't ask me. Will post photos of the baby after that. Then after that, going off to a cute gal's birthday. LOL!! Hmm, well, I hope my rashes will tone down even more.

Oh ya, hmm, my rashes still around, though its getting lesser each day, but still got red spots. Hai.. Really taking a long time to recover. Well, hope the other one having rashes has already recovered. :)

Take care people.

I will say, those days are the best, where happiness, sadness came in, made a big difference to me. I will say, magic also came in at that time, where I discovered another level of things. To be honest, only 1 gal walked into my life during the 2 years in NP. Ya, its my bad that I can't keep her with me and walk with her for the rest of the life, technically, I left her behind and I walked alone, or walked faster.

But bang, its over. I can't turn time back. I just have to face it. Well, at least I wish to meet up with the others, chat, at least.

Yesterday met with some of them, and they asked me a very unique question, that I don't really think of. "Are you going after her now again?" So my reply is, Yes and No.. Why will I say that? I wanted to keep things simple, I hurt her enough and I don't want her to think of me anymore worse than that. And lets things run loh, if we manage to go out together, understand each other further, and remarkable if there is a development, it will come in by itself. Right?

So how's things now? Well, I will say, well, nothing going on? Tried a few times, but no result, so let say I keep trying, trying to make sure it doesn't die off. :) 

It still great if can go back. :) Seriously..

1 week just past by man, and I feel it damn fast. Well, last week was quite okie, considering the work load. Anyway, Friday went down to DBL O and have a fun gathering from the generations of Magnum. Yap.. Considering from the oldest to the near youngest. LOL!!

And I found out 1 thing, guys that doesn't have gal friend with them, tend to dance with the gals, hmm like trying to hook up!

LOL, and I witness a few hook up on our "so nice" gals, and laughing away about it. As for me, I suppose I drink alot for that night, maybe not alot for some people. But for me, you know.. Hai.. Then we went to eat, to cool down and finally jumping back home. (I hope it wont affect my rashes.. LOL)

Oh ya, as for my rashes, I also dun know how to describe, its healing, but somehow, it became slow, like left with red spot like pimples around and like 2mm big. Ya. So even not alot of it, it seems like i am in a serious condition.

Well that brings me to another point, where i was eating fish head steamboat with my family on Sunday, and while eating, this guy came over and say something like "contact me, your son's skin seems problematic, can be because inside" So bascially, he sells health products, etc. so he left a namecard, but i can't be bothered, because first, I don't like or I hate saleman that come over to do sale while people is eating, I simply hate it. Second, the name card he left, is not a name card also, its a toastmaster club in a CC name card and his name is 1 of the many behind the name card. So I can't be bothered. 99 percent will be a multi level marketing thing and just using me as a tool to sell his product.

Anyway, for the benefit of all, I under some supplements to boast the immunity function and to take down the red swelling, and I WAY better from 2-3 weeks ago. Though yes, its taking very long and its the first time after so long that i get such a rash, i think will take another 2 weeks to get the redness down. I hope so, cause new year is coming. :(

Haha!! Sunday, spend at home, watching movies, and rented 3, 1 SUPER lame, which I wont bother to explain, and 2, its a boy girl thing and 21. DAMN nice!!! lol!! I like the lead female actress in boy girl thing, where she also acted in OC last time that i watched and she is cute.

Well, as for 21. I totally rock it man, cause it takes about how a group of MIT students swamp Vegas with millions. Based on true story, the statistics are correct of course, because we magicians know them also, not to the extend of memorize them, but know that due to statistics, the next card that come out will be.. ETC. But this bring up to the next level, because there is variable changes each time the card come out, example, the future cards will have lesser card, and the card appear will not appear again, etc.. So they bring in the variable changes equation, and make it a nearly perfect game that every time u play, u win. 

Well, some of you might be curious, but trust me, its not easy, considering memorizing the counting technique, learning the basic strategy , it will take you at least 6 months, and not also that, you need at least 4 person to work in the team. Not only that, you need to count under pressure. Not only that, you need 100 grand before u can enter vegas. :)

Godd luck to those that try.

Well, work has been quite relax and slow paced. Mainly because its Jan and not much activities will occur. But we do have some program coming up soon. Just that haven't reach the busy time yet.

As for shows, other than the usual show in Arena, well, i got 1 coming up soon, the first 1 for the year and the month and I am determined to make it good. Let the past be the past.

Thinking about this, this remind me of a friend telling me about competitive. I mentioned before that I don't really like to be competitive, but yes, competitive makes you stronger, go higher, but I believe in healthy way. I know he/she is good, I look upon him and strive higher, and if I am good and people look upon me, ask me things, I teach them.

So my stand is, friendly competition. It brings a long way for both parties, no matter in competition or shows and such. And also, I always compare with people that worked long enough to be the same level as me, etc. Like, I started my escape routine like 4-5 months ago, and I will compare with someone of that level, look upon someone that is very experience. And like wise, if I have 10 over years of experience, I will advise the young, help them, look after them, like camp planning, camp organization. I don't like to see as, I know tons of things and you know nothing, and tell others that "ah ya, he sucks"

Of course he sucks because he doesn't have much experience, he learn though pain, and me too, learn through pain. But it is not an excuse for mistakes, and admitting to them and tackling it after that is the key thing to learning.

I believe that if someone that is good and watch out for people that just started, he will know where he stand in the near future and what he need to do then, change routine, style, presentation.

And i believe so, if i worked in Escape for 2-3 years, I will look at the market, who is doing the same thing, what different can i make to myself that stands out of him/her, and won't be like, oh my god, he sucks in this, don't need to bother so much. Eventually people grow, thats how dangerous it can be.

Talking so much, I proud of myself to have started something that i know nuts of, and eventually now, I know something about it. Type of escapes, kind, top to below. I won't say i am the expert now, cause i still learning, but i promise, 1-2 years time, you can ask me about escape things, and i tell you what is good and bad of it. 

Recently has been busy, days we working on the new routine and then bringing in the new prop into Arena, it was a super big week for me/us. On Friday and Saturday, the audience seen our new acts into UM, and its refreshing touch to the whole Show. I personally love the levitation, due to its theatrical feel, and who don't like levitation? LOL!!!

Anyway, the most headache thing will be the bubble machine, which should be solved. (Today I going down and check on it) Hai, hopefully the method works, because its a pain in the ass to fix the problem of leakage.

So it also means that we are going to learn the new move in and out of the whole show. :) Well, another new will be that UM will only be 730pm from now onwards, this is to concentrate on 1 big good show, and also the time frame etc. 

As for myself, I keep listening to the music of my art to mentally rehearse on my arts. :) I be good, I will be super good.  I hope my rashes will subside in this coming 2-3 days. :) I really want to rehearse full force for my show. :)