| I woke up, feeling weird, because I had a very strange but nice dream. I dreamt of my ex, her name was Li Ping, and I knew her in Poly years, quite a few years back. But then, we ended badly, or should I say, I ended it badly. To a extend that I hate myself for doing that. Over the past few years, everytime I looked at her blog and saw negative posts, and it relates back, I wish I could be there to console her, though I not in that position to do it.
I dream of me, explaining to her and how much I loved her and how I hate myself for doing that in the past. though I know its impossible for us to be together again, I woke up hoping that it has happened, not of being together part, but the forgiveness and her smile once again.
Its a total difference story now, the current one, as I mentioned in the blog, I won't see it as a no choice, but a 1 and 2 that I have to make to commit myself into. So I decided to let go, and I know she is sad, me too, but I hope she understand that, I had enough pressure to commit into 1 thing and if I going to have relationship, it could have been a super low commitment or just like they say, flings.
Talking back to my ex, Its totally difference cause I totally just ended it without anything, reason or such. Hai.. I hope she read this, cause the last time I sms her, for a dinner. She din reply me. I hope that we got to see each other soon, in the near future, maybe a dinner or so, is a good start to clear things up.
Okie, enough of personal entry. Take Care Peeps. |
