Magic Journey of David Kim

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Strange

Strange things happen I guess.. I don't know whether is it good or bad. But maybe I glad it happens.

I received a call from a friend, not really expecting a call on such a day from such a person. But like I said, I glad, talked to her like hmm, 40 min while she on her way back. Yap, the surprising part is, why will she call me in the first place? I don't know and I don't ask.

The next moment, I am browsing friendster to look at her again, realizing that it been a while since I seen her.

Well, I mean life have been crazy over me, lets talk about girls. I been a bastard over such things and I admit to the fact about it. Not a big problem to any people, but well its just me I guess. I got people on my back pushing me about such things and told me to be realistic and settle down. I mean, I did tried, but crazy things always happen when I tried, and things started to get haywire. No time for her, can't do shit etc.

I started to realize, does it gonna do with me? Am I stuck with a situation like this where, when I am alone, there is no one that I can actually hang out and chat my heart out, but when I am with my gf, I din even have time for her? What's with the situation? It is cruel to me or just me?

Maybe its me that not willing to give all out, risk the chances and maybe a couple of quarrels. Ya.. I don't like meaningless reasonings, but what is meaningful? I seem people quarrel over what fruits they are getting, where they are going, or maybe even, entering which way. But they are happily together.

I guess its me that even this kind of quarrels I also don't want, but it is this small things that you remember. You remember the first time you kiss a girl, but you never remember how many times you kissed her. You remember the first fight you got in, but you never remember how many times you ran away from it.

So I guess, I wrong in a way, and giving excuses of what to do and what not to, is the reason why I keep being in a on and off situation.

I wish I give it a try, start to risk life and risk being with someone that I like. Maybe the next one is going to be a risky one. :) but it could be a great return in the end. Who knows... Only she knows..

posted by David Kim - Mentamorphosis 7:11 PM