I will say, those days are the best, where happiness, sadness came in, made a big difference to me. I will say, magic also came in at that time, where I discovered another level of things. To be honest, only 1 gal walked into my life during the 2 years in NP. Ya, its my bad that I can't keep her with me and walk with her for the rest of the life, technically, I left her behind and I walked alone, or walked faster.

But bang, its over. I can't turn time back. I just have to face it. Well, at least I wish to meet up with the others, chat, at least.

Yesterday met with some of them, and they asked me a very unique question, that I don't really think of. "Are you going after her now again?" So my reply is, Yes and No.. Why will I say that? I wanted to keep things simple, I hurt her enough and I don't want her to think of me anymore worse than that. And lets things run loh, if we manage to go out together, understand each other further, and remarkable if there is a development, it will come in by itself. Right?

So how's things now? Well, I will say, well, nothing going on? Tried a few times, but no result, so let say I keep trying, trying to make sure it doesn't die off. :) 

It still great if can go back. :) Seriously..